I am 30 years old and am from a little town called Moody. I guess you could say I had the usual childhood of a child from a broken home. Some points were good and some were bad. I felt rejected and unwanted by my dad. I was molested when I was very little which made me feel even more unwanted and unloved. I told my dad and he didn’t do anything about it. That made me feel even worse. I really had a twisted view of what love was like. This started me on the path to find love in all the wrong places. So from one failed relationship to another came drugs. I started out smoking weed and drinking slowly sinking deeper and deeper into sin. I met this guy I thought was mister right but little did I know he was mister wrong. He helped my drug use for the first time become really out of control. We were at a party and I watched him and his friends shoot up cocaine. I saw the way it made them feel. I wanted it and I asked them to fix me one. They did and they shot me up and in that very moment I became addicted. I started breaking into houses and stealing from people and family members to support my habit. That all caught up with me and I was arrested and went to jail. I would get back out and go right back to doing what I was before. Not learning anything. One day I saw myself and how I really looked I was sick at what I saw. I tried to kill myself by overdosing but I did not succeed. God had a different plan for me. I went to prison and started listening to some of the ladies talk about Jesus, I accepted Jesus asking him to come into my heart. From that day on every morning I would wake up and ask for his hand to help me through the day. I was in SAP class one day and a bird landed on the fence outside the window. I thought to myself what would I give to be that bird and fly out of here. Next thing I knew they were calling me to medical wanting to take blood. Because I was already medically cleared, I asked why they needed more blood work. They told me I had made parole. I left the next day and went to Life Tech. I stayed there until I used. I went back to Moody , had a good job, home, and life was good. I can tell you it only takes one second for you to take your eyes off Jesus and you will fall. I quickly found meth and became addicted started losing everything. My job, home, and my family. I went from place to place and guy to guy. I had no hope. I soon started selling myself. I thought that I had it all and I felt I had power. I did this to make sure I had a place to live and my drugs I needed to function. At the age of 29 my best friend died from an overdose. I felt so alone and so lost then my ex tested my family and told them what I was doing. They confronted me and we got into this big fight. I felt so ashamed, lost and hurt. I wanted the pain to end and I wanted it to go away I tried to kill myself again. But little did I know my mom and God weren’t going to let that happen. I woke up and asked God why and asked him to please help me. On June 25 I went to jail and no one would come get me or see me. A few days before my birthday, my mom came and told me about Teen Challenge. I told her I didn’t want to go that I wanted to go to the Love Lady. She said you can get yourself there but you can call me and let me know if you change your mind. Well later that night I told her I would go. Seven days later I was walking into the doors of Teen Challenge. Since I have been here God is showing me every day I am loved and how much I am worth. God has shown me I can trust him and He will take care of me. I just need to put my faith in Him. 1 Peter 1:7 says, “So that the genuineness of your faith is more valuable than gold, which perishes though refined by fire-may result in praise, glory, and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.” This verse helps remind me that as long as I put my faith in the Lord he can and is making something beautiful out of this mess. I see that every day in all my sisters and how they change and grow in front of my eyes. I have been honored to watch God work on a daily basis. Another verse that comes to mind is Isaiah 43: 18-19, “Forget the former things do not dwell on the past. See I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” God has made me someone my family is proud of, wants to be around and is happy to see. I have found who I am in Christ. I know I will live the rest of my life serving my King here on earth. Without Him I am nothing and do not have anything. I am His daughter and His princess and I am loved without limits.
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