Posted on September 12, 2011
My mother left me when I was 2 months old, and my father committed suicide when I was almost 6. My grandmother raised me, but I was very angry and confused and started rebelling against her at an early age. I went to church for 8 years and said the “sinners prayer” at age 11, but I didn’t know why I needed Jesus to be my Savior or what it meant to have a personal relationship with him. I never felt like I fit in anywhere. I was empty, and I tried everything in the world to try and fill that void in my life. I started out by just seeking acceptance in other people. At the age of 12, I was skipping school and smoking cigarettes. By age 14, I was smoking marijuana and drinking alcohol. At age 16, I had quit school, began selling marijuana and smoking crack cocaine. By age 17, I was sticking needles in my arm.
I had my first son at age 21, and when he was 4 months old I found out I was pregnant with my second son. Two years later I had my daughter. I couldn’t give them the love that they needed because I didn’t know what love was. I went from one relationship to the next looking for a love that can only be found in Christ. I spent time in and out of jail and did almost 3 years in prison. DHR came and took all of my children, and instead of fighting to get them back, I just continued to use more and more drugs. It was the only way I knew how to cope with life.
In 2006, I found myself living in and out of bars, shooting up about 2 ½ grams of Meth a day, and living in an abusive relationship with a drug dealer. I had overdosed on multiple occasions and didn’t care if I died at that point. I remember calling out to God and asking Him to take me out of my misery. He put me in jail one last time and spoke to my heart. I opened up the Bible and began to search for the truth. I read John 14:6 “I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” I cried out to Jesus and asked Him to come in and take control of my life. The power of the Holy Spirit came in and started working on me from the inside out, and I haven’t been the same since.
God brought me to the doors of Alabama Teen Challenge, and it was here that I learned how to live and walk with Christ and how to apply God’s Word to my life on a daily basis. God is still working to restore everything that the enemy tried to steal from my life. John 10:10 – “the enemy comes only to steal, kill, and destroy. Jesus said, I have come that they may have life and have it more abundant.” Thanks to Jesus and Alabama Teen Challenge, I am truly a new creation – 2 Corinthians 5:17!